I don’t never trust ghost

these days everything and everyone works towards forcing us to be happy, do we really need to fight out anger and sadness with drugs and therapy?

I often think about whats the worse way to die and always ended up choosing being traped in a tight space where I can’t use my arms and legs to find a way out.
a while ago while watching a video about mining I noticed I can’t bear to watch anymore because there’s rocks above and he is digging under something that can collaps at any time. I noticed the same feeling whenever I watch somebody going into a tight cave or well.
did I develope a phobia just by thinking about it?